Monday, March 3, 2008

More Awake Today

I came in today and Ava was wide awake and seems to be pretty calm for the most part. She was just looking around and listening to me talk to her. She is still pretty puffy. The nurse said that they did another chest x-ray and the doctor that is now on duty said that it looks like her lung as a pocket of fluid next to it. It is still up in the air exactly what they want to do about it. They may have to put another chest tube in to help get rid of the fluid. Whatever helps, I guess.
All in all she looks pretty well today. She can make some noise around her vent tube. When she cries it breaks my heart even more now because you can hear a little raspy voice behind it. She also must have been cooing or something just a little bit ago because I kept hearing her raspy little voice but she wasn't crying. And boy is she moving her arms. The poor girl must be a little weak because when she lifts her arm it starts shaking. I just want to pick her up and hold her. She looks like she is ready to play.

So I woke up early this morning with a horrible headache and decided to try and sleep it off. When I finally woke up it was still there and on top of it I had a cold sore. I HATE cold sores. Nate and I were actually just talking about them the other day and I told him since we mentioned it that I will probably get one. Sure enough, I did. I really think that it is related to stress. I either get them because of stress or being sick. I just pray that I am not catching anything. I really do not feel bad...except for the headache. Now that I have been in the room with Ava...I started getting paranoid and I am wondering if I should be wearing a mask or something. I will probably talk to the nurse and see what she thinks. I could not even imagine getting Ava sick after all that she has already been through. I just talked to the nurse and she agrees with me that it probably is related to stress. However, I have decided to wear a mask right now just to be on the safe side.

P.S I forgot to mention that they have started her feedings back up!!! She seems to be enjoying it!!!


Anonymous said...

My heart breaks for you right now. I know how hard it is being up there alone and worse, not being able to hold your sweet baby. I know that Ava knows you are with her. I pray for the day you have her back in your arms again. Please let me know if I can do anything to help your family back in JC. I would love to help any way! I wish I could give you a big hug right now! If you get the chance to pick a fantastic nurse, Ask for Allie. She is the most amazing person. She was Jack's primary and we both just adored her. Hold on Amy, you are in all of our prayers.

Kristy, JC

Anonymous said...

We are thinking of you and praying! I cannot wait for you to be able to snuggle your little sweet Ava~ My heart goes out to you! Hope to see you soon!Love ya!Whitney