First of all, I want to thank you ALL for the support. It never fails to amaze me how just getting on to the blog and reading the comments from all of you can make my day brighter. I want you all to know that I did talk to somebody about the nurse we had yesterday and requested not to have her again. It is kind of funny how after being with Kaden in the hospital for awhile I was able to let someone know if I wasn't comfortable with one of his nurses, even at home, I sometimes felt like I was being TOO picky. Now that I am up here again and haven't had to be picky in a long while, I think I lost my touch : ). I know that I should not worry about other people's feelings (because after all it is my baby we are talking about), I have just always been the kind of person that worries about other peoples feelings. After thinking about it and reading all of your comments I realized that I need to go with my gut feeling. I think that it has been easier to do with Kaden because I know that I know him. I think I second guess myself with Ava because she has been in this world for a little over 5 weeks and I wonder how much I really know. I am sure I sound crazy, but I can assure you that I will go with my gut instinct from now on. I now feel terrible that I allowed my feelings to get in the way of making a decision I know would have made me feel better about Ava's care. I just pray that Ava stays healthy and everything keeps moving forward after yesterday or I would so blame myself.
On another note...
Ava is doing well. We put a cute pink and brown pj outfit on her last night. She looks adorable. They weaned her a little more on her sedation med, I think she is close to being off of it and they even decreased her rate on the vent. The next step on the vent is to switch her to the mode where she has to do all of the work, but the vent is there to support that work and then hopefully she will be off. I am not counting on her to come off today, I really don't believe they are going to push her that fast. They increased one of her diuretics to help her get rid of that stubborn fluid built up in her chest and hopefully that will work soon and fast so she doesn't get too dry. Well, she is waking up right now so I will post more later.
Do Not Worry
9 years ago