My sweet baby (ok, big) boy takes my breath away. Yesterday, Kaden and I were watching Barnyard (the movie). I am not sure how many of you have seen this movie, but there is a part where Ben the cow dies. At that particular part in the movie, Kaden turns to me and signs "cow" and then "Heaven". He then goes straight to signing "baby" and then again "Heaven," I do have to mention that Kaden has made up a sign for Heaven since I do not know what it is.
Then tonight we did our new ritual of not only picking out a bed-time story for Kaden, but one for Ava as well. Kaden points to Ava's picture in our room to "remind" mommy to bring her picture to bed with us while we read. We said our prayers and he "talked" to sissy. I asked him tonight what he said to her, curious to see if he would be able to sign it to me. He started using his voice again (keep in mind he can only say mama and uh-oh to where we can fully understand what he is saying)...so I asked him if he told sissy that he loves her. He got so excited and squirmy (what he normally does if you guess something he wants, correctly). The rest of our conversation went as follows, with Kaden signing and me replying with words...
Kaden: "me" and what I thought was "sleep."
Me: "you want to sleep?"
He shook his head no and signed it again.
Me: "sad?" (his sleep and sad signs look the same).
Me: "Are you sad because you miss sissy?"
Kaden: "yes." He continued, "mommy...sad, daddy...sad, grandpa...sad, grandma...sad, nana...sad, me...sad, everybody... sad."
Me: "You're right baby, everybody is sad, everybody misses sissy."
It touched my heart that Kaden figured out how to express to me how he was feeling and that he has a understanding of Ava and what she means to our family. I am happy to know that he loves her and thinks about her as much as Nate and I do.
Do Not Worry
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