Saturday, May 17, 2008

Getting Bigger...

Today, Kaden stood up by himself, without holding onto anything...THREE TIMES!!! Then he took off walking without holding on. What a big boy he is growing into. If only we could get the potty training thing down.

It was such a nice day out so Kaden drove his truck to grandpa and grandma's house...daddy bent over most of the way to steer for Kaden. I am hoping that he will figure out how to steer soon...I think he has already had more accidents then I have...and that is a lot : )!!! Last year he ran grandma over and knocked her down...it was pretty funny, probably not so much for her.

I am so thankful for Kaden. He has been keeping us on our toes. He gives us so much strength. However, we miss our baby girl more then words can say, but we have to keep going for Kaden...he deserves it. We have added a book at bedtime for Ava (and put a picture of her in bed with us). We then say our prayers and Kaden "talks" to Ava. Last Kaden gives us our kisses and then we all blow kisses up to Ava in Heaven. I am not sure how much Kaden truly understands. The first day back to school I was told that he signed "mommy, daddy, home" a lot, as if asking for reassurance. I am not sure if he thinks we left Ava, or if he thinks we are going to leave him and go back to the hospital. So, I talked to him again about everything. He knows sissy is in Heaven and points up after signing "baby." It is so hard to explain something to him, that I truly do not understand myself. I am still so shocked by it all and do not find it real. There are many days, especially nights, where I have to fight the urge to call the hospital to check on Ava. That was my routine...stay at the hospital with her all day and leave in between 10:30 and midnight (sometimes later), I would then call from the Ronald McDonald House to check on her before I went to bed. I know that I complained many times that I wanted us to go home, but what I would give to be able to be back at the hospital with her again.

Baby girl, we miss you so much. We love you and will continue to love you every second of our lives. You are so special to us and brought so much joy to our lives...and still do every time we look at your pictures or watch your videos. You are our beautiful angel. Love you forever and ever...mommy, daddy, and bubby

I will try to post a video of Kaden tomorrow. Keep your eyes opened!!!

6 comments:

Tyler Patrick Breuer said...

Way to GROW, Kaden! That's great news! Thinking about you always.
Heart Hugs,
Kathleen

Pam said...

Thinking of you.....Glad that Kaden is keeping you on your toes.

He is such an amazing kid....and way to go on the steps, that is HUGE!! I bet Ava was cheering him on from up above.

I can't wait to see video.

You are always in our thoughts and prayers.

((HUGS))

Pam and Rhett

Isabella said...

I am so proud of Kaden. He is the most amazing little boy. And I think those little cars are hard to drive!! Abby and Maddy wreck the Barbi jeep all the time. It is so cute to watch them drive though.
Amy I can't even imagine the emotions you are having right now. It is just beyond our understanding as to why this happened. It is however amazing the impact little Ava had on this world in just 3 1/2 months. And with the love you and Nate have for her, she will continue to make an impact everytime you blog about her or tell her story.
Your loving family has made a difference in my family. Your faith and strength amazes me. I know this does not make it easier now, but I truely feel that you and Nate will someday be rewarded beyond your wildest dreams for the love and devotion you have shown with your wonderful children. And also the love and devotion you have shown to other families. I just don't think there are enough words in the human language for me to describe just how wonderful I think you two are.
Know that you are in our constant thoughts and prayers.
Love
Megan

Ashlea said...

Kaden is such a sweet little boy, and he sounds like he is doing great! The fishing pictures are too cute! Maybe he'll be more interested in fishing in a year or two. I'd rather have a reader anyway. :)

Thinking about you guys,
The Konecny Family

Becca said...

Kaden sounds like an amazing little guy. I'm so glad to hear he's doing so well, and again, I'm so sorry for your loss. Now that I've found your blog, I'll keep checking in for a visit to celebrate all of Kaden's milestone achievements!

Anonymous said...

Yeah for Kaden! Pretty soon he will be sprinting! How exciting to see Kaden reach milestones!

Angela