Today, Kaden stood up by himself, without holding onto anything...THREE TIMES!!! Then he took off walking without holding on. What a big boy he is growing into. If only we could get the potty training thing down.
It was such a nice day out so Kaden drove his truck to grandpa and grandma's house...daddy bent over most of the way to steer for Kaden. I am hoping that he will figure out how to steer soon...I think he has already had more accidents then I have...and that is a lot : )!!! Last year he ran grandma over and knocked her down...it was pretty funny, probably not so much for her.
I am so thankful for Kaden. He has been keeping us on our toes. He gives us so much strength. However, we miss our baby girl more then words can say, but we have to keep going for Kaden...he deserves it. We have added a book at bedtime for Ava (and put a picture of her in bed with us). We then say our prayers and Kaden "talks" to Ava. Last Kaden gives us our kisses and then we all blow kisses up to Ava in Heaven. I am not sure how much Kaden truly understands. The first day back to school I was told that he signed "mommy, daddy, home" a lot, as if asking for reassurance. I am not sure if he thinks we left Ava, or if he thinks we are going to leave him and go back to the hospital. So, I talked to him again about everything. He knows sissy is in Heaven and points up after signing "baby." It is so hard to explain something to him, that I truly do not understand myself. I am still so shocked by it all and do not find it real. There are many days, especially nights, where I have to fight the urge to call the hospital to check on Ava. That was my routine...stay at the hospital with her all day and leave in between 10:30 and midnight (sometimes later), I would then call from the Ronald McDonald House to check on her before I went to bed. I know that I complained many times that I wanted us to go home, but what I would give to be able to be back at the hospital with her again.
Baby girl, we miss you so much. We love you and will continue to love you every second of our lives. You are so special to us and brought so much joy to our lives...and still do every time we look at your pictures or watch your videos. You are our beautiful angel. Love you forever and ever...mommy, daddy, and bubby
I will try to post a video of Kaden tomorrow. Keep your eyes opened!!!
Do Not Worry
8 years ago