This video is of Ava and her never ending hiccups. She was trying so hard to fall asleep.
Last night was difficult for me. I had the hardest time falling asleep...it is becoming a trend. I actually ended up going through her things and trying hard to remember everything about her. It scares me when I feel like I can't remember something...how she felt in my arms, how she smelled, anything. I decided to take one of her blankets to bed and cuddle with it (I got that idea from Micah and Jason...thanks, it is a great idea). I have been having unbelievably good days for awhile now, but last night it just hit...again. I miss her so much. I guess just the thought of not seeing her or holding her crept back into my mind. Not that I don't want to think about those things, it is just easier for me to get through a day not doing so...I hope that makes sense and doesn't sound so mean. Never the less, I miss Ava...EVERYTHING about her.
I love you baby girl, you are forever in my heart.