Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Today was an emotional day for me. I don't know if it had to do with hormones or just frustration, but my mind was definitley on Ava and Kaden today.

I miss Ava terribly. I think about her all of the time. I know that she is watching over us and I pray that she feels the love that we still have and always will have for her.

Today I was really frustrated about a comment somebody made about Kaden (which at this time I do not wish to post). The more and more I thought about the comment, it has been on my mind ALL day by the way, the more and more frustrated I got. Although I had that on my mind, it also brought to my mind how much I really miss Ava. I know I miss her and I know what has happened, but it truly has felt like ages ago. Normally my every day thought of Ava is her beauty and all the time and love we shared with her (I know that sounds cliche, but it is true).

Ava, know that mommy, daddy and bubby miss you and love you. You hold such a special place in our lives and nothing will ever replace that. Your beauty will forever be in my mind. Thank you for coming in to our lives and bringing us so much joy and love. We will love you for the rest of our lives.

Love you always and forever,
mommy, daddy, and your bubby

As for Kaden:

I want you to know how much joy you too, have brought to mommy and daddy's lives. You have taught us more then anyone ever has. You are so amazingly bright. Know that you can do ANYTHING...which you have proven day after day. There is nothing that can get in your way, remember that. You can be anything you want. You are not like everybody else...you are MORE. You have overcome things without even thinking twice about them, not just anybody would be able to do that. Keep your strength and your beliefs. Don't ever let somebody tell you that you can not do something. You are a miracle and every day I see it. Thank you for being you. I pray and hope that other's learn how to live life like you. You are the happiest, most loving boy and we are so lucky that we get to enjoy you. We will love you forever and ever.

Love always and forever,
mommy, daddy and angel Ava


Rachel said...

You are right!!! You are so lucky to have such a wonderful boy in your life and such a wonderful Angel up above watching over you all. Not everybody can have that either (a special Angel)

I want to just come and give you the biggest hug! You are doing great and I am very proud to say that you are a friend!

If you ever need anything...post on my blog and I will get you my email address and phone number.

Love and Prayers Always...your Friend Rachel

BiLlY, sAm, AnD bOyS!!! said...

I never realized it till the day Tayte was born but I have learned MANY times so many people don't think before they speak! Your family is an inspiration to me and my husband I only wished we lived closer so we could meet. It is so hard being a mom period, especially having to deal with stupid people! You are so strong and have been through so much I look up to you for that! I hope you can get past the comment and realize your family is SO MUCH better then the one who made the comment. Give Kaden kisses and loves for us! He is amazing!!!

My Three Sons said...

I think some people are just uneducated idiots. I'm not sure what the comment was but I certainly wouldn't stoop to their level. That person probably has never tried to have a good life and is just a miserable person to be around. Your right, Kaden has been through more than I will ever see in my 33 years of life and for that, he is my hero!!

You just focus on what is important, the love for your family and friends and to heck with the others!

Keep your chin up..

Love Kaci and Carson

PS I will e-mail you later at your private addy and give you a list of all of Carson's appointments. THe next one I believe is Sept 11th.

CrackerJacks said...

I am sorry someone said something negative. Ignore the bad. You have a beautiful family. Kaden is as sweet as ever!

Kyle, Aimee and Ava said...

Keep you chin up. You and your family are amazing people and have been through more then I could ever imagine! Kaden is so lucky to have you as his mommy!

Side question? How old were Kaden and sweet angel Ava in those pictures?

Isabella said...

Kaden and Ava are both heros. They have to be two of the most remarkable people God has put on this earth. And you are right, Kaden will be able to do ANYTHING he sets his mind to. He is amazing!! I know I have told you before, but everytime I see him, I am in awe of him. Seeing all that Kaden has and is accomplishing, gives me hope for Isabella. Your family is amazing and we think the world of you guys. You and Nate are doing an amazing job!!
Praying for you always

Anonymous said...

I am a lurker and sometimes commenter that enjoys reading your blog and am amazed by your beautiful children. I was heartbroken for you when Ava passed away but continue to be drawn to your blog to hear all about Kaden. When I read his story from the begining I could not believe all this little boy has been through yet continues to AMAZE everyone...even strangers like me. Seriously, I can't believe he can spell things! It makes me sick to think anyone would say something disparaging regarding him. Keep up the good work...he is special to many, known and unknown.

Shannon @ Gabi's World said...

It's easy to say "Don't pay attention to what others think or say," but it is so much harder to live by those words. Sorry somebody was so cruel to you and your precious family.

The Bryant Family said...

Amy-i just read your comment on Carey's blog. I am sorry that people are so ignorant when it comes to our kids. I knew,,several months ago, when Kaden could spell and type and all kinds of things that he is going to do wonderful things....break the molds and beat the stereotypes people put on our kids. Hang in there. You are doing the right thing. I would have been all over them saying something negative about my son, they have enough to overcome in their lives--teachers especially should not be saying or doing things that their students see that they in turn think the same way. (that is kinda messed up but if the teachers dont set the example then the students in the class treat our kids the same way.) Man, I am all fired up and am not making sense.

Angel Gabi's Mommy said...

Ignorance is harsh! I am so sorry someone spoke words that were not nice. There is NEVER a time or place to speak hateful things especially about children. You and Nate continue to do such amazing things with Kaden as well as for him.
Ava shines within your hearts and will live on forever. Both of your babies are so blessed to have such wonderful parents. And the little one on the way, WOW...he/she has no idea just how lucky he/she is! Continue to give thanks, God knows what he is doing, atleast that is what I keep telling myself:)

Sendings lots of hugs, loves, and prayers!!!