These are pictures from the weekend. The one with Kaden and my nephew in strollers was taken at the mall. Kaden grabbed Miles' hand and then when I wanted to take a picture, he wasn't to thrilled about capturing it on camera : ). The rest are from the Boeckman family celebrating Nate's dad's birthday. We went out to eat and then went bowling (another first for Kaden). He really enjoyed it. I posted a picture of him sitting in a chair with his arms up in the air...that was his reaction to me telling him it was his turn. We had a lot of fun. Needless to say...I suck at bowling. I use to go a lot when I was younger, and I actually got better scores then, then what I got Sunday. Talk about frustrating : ).
On another note...I have been pretty emotional lately (no thanks to the hormones). First of all, the other night I was looking for something on the blog and had to go back to posts around the time Ava passed away. I watched some of the videos I posted and it really made everything "real" again. I don't know how to explain it. I go day to day knowing that Ava is gone, and think about her all of the time, but the thought of her doesn't bring me down. I guess I try to focus on all the good, all the love, all of her cuteness. Then when I watched the videos and read the posts and even some of the comments it brought the reality of everything home again (which, by the way I never found what I was looking for). I went to bed crying that night and have been emotional since. I miss her so much and I guess watching those videos brought her back to life although I was not able to reach out and touch her, hold her or kiss her. What I would have given to reach through the computer and hold her. It is so frustrating to go days feeling good, thinking good thoughts and then boom...that one day throws everything off. So then the list goes on and on.
The highlight of my days, Kaden, is doing well. He is getting bigger and smarter every day. We haven't been pushing the potty training. We actually stopped all together for awhile and out of the blue one day at school he asked to use the potty and peed!!! Since then I would say he has asked every day and has used it at least once a day on his own free will. Baby steps!!! After MANY, MANY, MANY attempts to find a Halloween costume he has finally decided on Mickey Mouse (he has found a new interest in Mickey). Although after I ordered it he changed his mind once again, but I told him it was set in stone, he has to be Mickey. He didn't seem to sad over it. I am excited to see the costume on him as well as his reaction when he sees himself in the mirror.
Next weekend, we are taking a mini get away to Branson. We are excited to take Kaden on his first "vacation." I think he will have a blast.
Do Not Worry
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