Tuesday, January 29, 2008

The nerves are setting in...

I have been doing well, not worrying too much about the arrival of baby Ava. I think I have been pretty upbeat and "ready." That was until tonight. My family and I were just discussing plans for Kaden and how things are going to work while Ava is in the hospital and I kind of lost it. I couldn't control it anymore....the waterworks were on. I thought it would be a challenge making sure that two children receive the amount of attention they both would require in the same house, but to try and do it in two different buildings seem really scary to me. I just want to make sure that I am able to share my time with both Kaden and Ava and I definately do not want Kaden to feel like I am neglecting him. I am just really nervous at how this is all going to work itself out. I can not believe she is going to be here in a matter of days. We are leaving tomorrow (hopefully) to get Kaden settled into the Ronald McDonald House and that way we don't have to get up extra early on Thurs to make it to the hospital. It will be so much easier to be up there the night before, especially since it is easier to fit Kaden into our vehicle and that way my parents do not have to worry about getting him down there.

I am getting really nervous now. I continue to pray for her health and quick recovery. It's funny how emotions work. I was fine earlier today and I guess just the thought and discussion of everything made it all real. I am so excited about having another little one to love on, I just pray that we get the chance. Don't get me wrong, I still have high hopes for her, but again, reality has come back into play. I THANK each and every one of you who continue to pray for our family and all the encouraging comments and discussion I have had with you all. I will try to keep an update regularly. Please continue the prayers they are very much appreciated.

6 comments:

Gabi's Mommy said...

Oh Amy, my heart goes out to you! You and Nate have such amazing strength. Ava has fought long and hard and she will give it her all. We continue to pray for her arrival and quick recovery, yours too. I don't know that I have the right words for you, but just believe and know that God will take care of Ava.
Kaden will have a tough time, but any child does when there is a new baby around. Don't beat yourselves up over it, that to will pass with time:) He will learn to love and accept her just as every other big brother and big sister out there!
I cannot wait to see pictures of your newest edition. We will be with you in prayer! We love you!
I will send Gabi your direction.. She is one special angel to watch over your precious baby girl!
HUGS!!!

Isabella said...

Amy my heart and my prayers go out to you. I have been letting everyone I know about your situation so they may also pray for you and the arrival of baby Ava tomorrow. I understand your fears and mixed emotions. It has to be really scary. It is also very hard to split your time. I know Matt and I struggled with that over the last year with our other two girls. God will work it out. I know you guys are awesome parents and Kaden knows how much you love him. It is so hard when all you want to do is care for and protect your children. Then when you have to face the realization that God is the only one really in control, it is scary. As much as we trust in him, it is hard to turn loose of that control. We love our children so much. I know Ava has so many people praying for her and think of how many lives she has already touched and she has not even been born yet. You have two very special children who are going to leave big footprints on this earth. If you need anything let us know. And again we are praying. Take Care and God Bless
Lots of Love
Megan

Isabella said...

Amy my heart and my prayers go out to you. I have been letting everyone I know about your situation so they may also pray for you and the arrival of baby Ava tomorrow. I understand your fears and mixed emotions. It has to be really scary. It is also very hard to split your time. I know Matt and I struggled with that over the last year with our other two girls. God will work it out. I know you guys are awesome parents and Kaden knows how much you love him. It is so hard when all you want to do is care for and protect your children. Then when you have to face the realization that God is the only one really in control, it is scary. As much as we trust in him, it is hard to turn loose of that control. We love our children so much. I know Ava has so many people praying for her and think of how many lives she has already touched and she has not even been born yet. You have two very special children who are going to leave big footprints on this earth. If you need anything let us know. And again we are praying. Take Care and God Bless
Lots of Love
Megan

Anonymous said...

I can't believe she's almost here!! I'm so excited! I just wanted to wish you the best and hope everything goes wonderful! I'm always thinking of you guys! If you need help with ANYTHING just let me know. I'm not far from Kansas City! I will see you soon! Love you all soooo much!
Jen & Adam

Jessica Wickwar said...

Wow Amy its been years, I didn't even know you had children until I saw Jessica's post. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I kind of know what your going through right now, my dad had several heart attacks and had a triple bypass a couple weeks ago. Keep your head held high and I am sure everything will work out just fine :)

Jessie

Lindsay said...

Amy, this is Lindsay Dean. I just wanted you to know I am praying for your family and for a safe arrival of baby Ava! I f you need anything let me know I am working at KU MED as a respiratory therapist. My email is L81monkey@yahoo.com. Stay strong!