My poor little Kaden did not feel well at all today. I actually stayed home with him because we did not have a nurse today. Our plan was to go to school together and hang out, just mommy and Kaden because daddy went on a hunting trip and left last night. Well at about four in the morning the poor little guy woke up and was up and down the rest of the morning. When we finally made it out to the living room he just laid on his blanket watching cartoons, quietly, not interested in books or anything. Then he started whining, so I picked him up and cuddled him and he was out like a light...for about 20 minutes, and the wretching started. This poor little guy stayed in my lap for most of the day, minus the time I decided to give him a quick bath. He would sleep for 20 minutes or so, wake up trying to throw up, and then fall back to sleep. After, oh, about most of the day I decided to move him to the couch because my back was in so much pain and Ava would not stop kicking him, and he laid there for about an hour watching cartoons. He didn't want anything to do with anyone except for mommy and boy was he a cuddle bug. I am not sure what is going on with him, I kind of wonder if it is a stomach bug...or his patch. He was so upset this morning, signing potty, but never went and he hasn't had very many wet diapers. I did start a feeding this morning and he received most of it, and then I gave him water with some medicine that is suppose to help him stool (but didn't). Then I started pedialyte and have had that running continously at a low rate. He is not running a real fever, but the last couple of years we all ended up with the nasty stomach bug without fevers. I have been waiting for us to catch the bug...it's just part of our winter routine, so maybe that is what it is. I just hope that I don't get it for Ava's sake and if I do, it will be over the weekend...I need to work tomorrow, since I have already had to take off three days this week, all being unpaid leave. Please pray for Kaden to get better and for this to be just some bug that will soon pass and nothing to do with any type of surgery or his diaphragm.
March 31st is Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia Awareness Day. Please wear turquoise this day for Kaden and all of the other's who have been diagnoised with this birth defect.
Jan. 31, 2008 to May 7, 2008 You are in our hearts and will be forever. We love you baby girl and miss you so much.
Our Big Boy
We love you bubby.
While we try to teach our children about life, our children teach us what life is all about. (author unknown)
Special Angel In Heaven
There's a special Angel in Heaven that is a part of me. It is not where I wanted her but where God wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment like a night time shooting star. And though she is in Heaven she isn't very far.
She touched the heart of many like only an Angel can do. I would've held her every minute if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message to the Heaven up above. Please take care of my Angel and send her all my love. -Author unknown
A WALK TO REMEMBER
I walk to remember the steps you'll never take. I carry you with me as I firmly plant my feet. Our trek started long ago, before my belly swelled. You were a love that grew-like butterfly wings that beat. Your gentle flutters than became kicks upon which I would dwell. And I would talk to you, sweet babe, about the world you soon would meet. The sun always shown upon us then-when you were in my womb. And I was eager to show you the world that would have been your home. How you'd have loved the sun shining-blue skies without a cloud. The autumn leaves turning-the snow falling all around. The flowers in the summer,would have filled your eyes with smiles. And the rain that might have fallen would have caused you great surprise. You would have traveled far with me-holding me by the hand. And I'd have shown you all I could-more than I can imagine. You hold my heart tightly now, as thought we're holding hands. How far we've traveled, little one-and my life with you has been sweet. For I carry you in my heart as I firmly plant my feet.
I have four wonderful, beautiful children. Three are here on earth with us, the other received her wings and is now in Heaven watching over us. I take pride in my children, they are the strongest people I have ever met. I have been blessed to be a part of their lives. I am TRULY grateful that God chose my husband and I to love these children. I have never known a greater love than a mommy's love.
THE CHOSEN ONES I had a dream the other night. It came to me so clear. I stood before the throne of God,afraid to come too near. God said to me, "I hear your prayers. There are answers you can't find. I brought you here to talk to me and help to ease your mind. "I said,"Well, yes, God, I am upset...About my special one. This punishment is awfully harsh...Whatever have I done?" God looked at me and shook his head, He said, "My Dear, you've got it wrong. I sent this special child to you because you are so strong. I searched and searched to try and find someone with a love so rare. Parents so unselfish they could give him that special care. I try to save my special gifts,like those you're speaking of,for a special kind of parents I call the 'Chosen Ones. 'Of all the ones to choose from,I know I've got it done...Parents who deserve my best,an honor you have won." -Unknown